I can’t describe it…it almost feels like the world is slipping away from us…is this what death feels like. No, death would be better than this. I feel like it is the end; some sensation inside of me and I know that inevitably something will happen. This is the chance where I make the big choice. Maybe this is it. This could just be the final scene before the end, before what we see now fades away. This moment is sliding away from us, like water running through our fingertips. It feels scary, it feels empty… it feels eerily calm. I want to sit down, possibly escape all of this, it is a nightmare that never ends… but at the same time I want to scream and stop this, knowing that whatever I do, there is no stopping this.