PRETENCE

Doubt can get in the way to happiness. I really believe this because I always find myself doubting the things in front of me or the emotions I’m feeling. And many times, when I have let myself doubt the life I’m living and the things in it, I have begun to experience depression and sadness. But what if I just didn’t doubt anymore? Would it be unfair to call it ignorant? You see, all my life, doubt is all I’ve known. I was told how imperfect I was, it was shown to me numerous times verbally and physically on the school yards and I never found a true solace in the world until I submitted myself to the feet of God. Until I finally committed my troubles in prayer. Just on Friday, I was feeling really sad and worried that I wasn’t the person that I could’ve been. I wasn’t the best that I could’ve been. And many things in the days leading up to that had made me think this. I was haunted by the miserable past that had once plagued and followed me like a shadow. But now I realise, I can decide to let myself be happy or sad. And I think I have spent too long being an object of sadness and pain. I believe in the power of God. And I trust that only God can give me the strength and courage I need to endure this journey we call life. More importantly, the more I think about this, in view of all that has been a part of my life, it makes my ordeals seem like nothing in comparison to what Christ did on the Cross. And so I let myself be only accountable to God and no one else. I pray that He will alone bestow his Grace and Mercy upon me in my life as I live it as best I can to please Him. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

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  1. Reblogged this on God is always with us and commented:
    I felt like you were totally doing what Jesus Christ ask all Christians to do, you knelt before Him, as many times per day as you needed to, and layers all of your pain, your burdens at His feet, and Prayed asking for God’s blessings. I say very well done, great totally honest way we can do daily, and as many times, as we need to throughout our day’s, learn to lay them at Jesus feet and totally let go and let God help. Amen. God bless you and family. Please review my blog godisalwayswithus.com like and comment.