Since I know where and when I shine,

I continue to remind myself of horrors,

Beyond my power or control to stop,

I want it to be no more a horror,

A shame or regret, instead,

Moments of perseverance,

Carelessness and impossibly,

One of strange happiness,

Derived from achieving my goal,

In this lifetime, I have to stop worrying,

It is too much to feel this way…helpless,

Wherever and whenever,

It can occur but I always hope,

That the time after I’ll show dignity,

In the face of my past.