I dreaded to be here,
It’s a place of shame but also one,
Where for once in my life I felt free,
I once thought I could make a life here,
I dreamed it, and only by a harsh No,
It came crashing down like a building.
Many times this place reminded me,
Of things that just couldn’t be,
My fantasies that had boundaries,
Within my mind, and never could be lived,
The way I intended it,
But now that I’m here,
And though I pleaded no before,
I see some beauty seeping through,
What lies in front of me.
I feel that maybe I’m not meant to leave,
But I also am scared this might be,
Another dream that I’ll never give life to,
For once though, with strength I can say,
It really doesn’t matter,
As long as it was lived.