PETALS ON WATER
How much does it take for a person to break away? For the pain I feel everyday, is something I live with, that I let live. And I’m amazed that I’ve done nothing drastic to break away from these chains, like others. The truth is, I don’t truly know who I am like I did before. And though life offers so much, I don’t know what I want anymore. Everything needs to be still for me to focus on the ones that I truly love. But these pictures drift away like petals in water and I return to the world of mania. People surprise me, and I observe more and hear more than I should. In fact, I wonder sometimes if the things I say and do are even human. It sometimes really feels that I rely upon the voices in my head and the music playing in my ears. And the wait for summertime, for glorious sunshine. Which in these six months seems to be a destination I’ll never arrive at.