BEAUTIFUL LITTLE FOOL
How long will it take for me to start regretting all I’ve done? Will I ever turn around and say sorry to the wind, when everyone is gone, who will I turn to who will listen to me as my broken soul sings out loud? Who will ever hold me tight and never let me go even when I say I can brace the fall? Who will take the fall with me even when I don’t ask them to, and tell me they won’t ever go anywhere but be here? I’d have found the world in you, but it was too good to be true. I opened my soul up to a star and found it to be beautiful at first glance, but did my gaze miss something? How long have I been asking that question? For this star has taken my own light, and now lives within my hollow self. Remember that year, when emotions were like wildfire, when the future was a frightening reality, when each experience felt realer than life, when I came clawing through in the end, when I said good-bye to my beaming soul and hello to a new girl, when I buried something deep in me and let something grow, something that has blossomed now into my soul. Could you call me and tell me the truth, and stop all these questions? I don’t need you if this is going to end, so end it if that’s what it’s gonna be, for the distance between you and I must be covered in truth, beautiful like rose petals scattered around. And your lies aren’t worth the time, nor are mine, so leave it at that. I have so little light, so little soul some days, but if you take time, and let me look deep into myself, we’d both witness something more than diamond tears…even more than empty words. Cover love in truth. I forgive you. How will you ever know?