There is nothing we can’t do, the emptiness seethes,
We can be anything but we wade in fear,
The pool is dark and deep, we are in a world of sleep,
Bloodshot eyes won’t wake up to reality,
Numbness masks the turmoil submerged in a black sea,
Deep down, past the monsters & nightmares,
I find solace in the emeralds & rubies that blare,
It counts one, two and three, you speed into the air,
What is enclosed in the mind is set free only in this momentum,
I cry because he doesn’t know, touch & smiles are seldom,
I will never say the words I want to say, I am dying,
Nobody wants to hold my hand, even the stars are horrifying,
Happiness can’t take me nowhere, no more, not even you,
You cannot stare so freely; gaze like a knife piercing through.
Your ‘hello’ is my alarm,
Your hands leave me disarmed,
Eyes so wide like the Earth that’s spinning,
Got me disoriented, displaced and sinning,
I hold nothing but shards in my hands,
My blood flows freely, I told her you won’t understand.
I will keep pushing away, searching for a new jewel,
All I do is laugh and cry, think me a fool.
If you have nothing, you being to treasure everything,
That slips away, human touch is next to nothing,
My mind recedes and loves like a bruised heart,
My writing all twisted and torn, this is my art,
With all this pain we carry like barely-held-in water,
It’s about time one of us blows & life seems shorter.