SUMMER 

SUMMER 

I don’t want to forget this feeling, this strange longing isn’t painful and it isn’t my life. But you began like a bullet, pierced my skies, and bloomed into a rose, you gave me sweet love. I can understand you even if not my own world, it’s all I want now. To not move but wade in this blue water that moves with me & we go everywhere all around this world that I can’t walk through without you playing. Because I am always asking myself ‘can you help me‘, but I have no one to ask it to but you who will always keep playing faithfully. Side by side, if I close my eyes, and let this take over, we can make our own world that doesn’t die until we surrender all we love to something else. I just wanna write and sing like an artist, because my broken soul is aching for something human and truthful. At night I look up to the dark sky and I feel the disappointment of the stars but the morning sun gives me assurance of a new day, another chance to hear the thunder roll over me & comfort me. It’s what I return to to make sense of the madness of the monotony of the world that tries to keep me in chains. I’m thinking of a peach sunrise and the taste of sweet strawberries and ‘summer’ on the tip of my tongue and wondering if this is my summer. That once I lead a life alone, I’ll find the glory of summer in the open arms of kindness and love far away from this island of fleeting moments. I must say, I’m sick of shooting stars, for my wishes never came true and each shooting star became a disappointment I had to bear alone. I’ve grown accustomed to the bitter truth and that you won’t always be there. You’ve found your place with another and everyone I know is drifting away from this island. It makes me shudder to think that this land of drifting clouds will become my abode. Under the midnight sky, I wake up and accept the hour of tears, rise to the exquisite morning and surrender myself to the blue sky. I’m an ant in your gaze, trying to get through the many mysteries and miseries of life, praying you won’t abandon me when I will need you the most. 

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