·MARY HELEN·

They broke my fingers and they broke my bones. I am a ghost gasping through the exuberance of life. They haven’t seen horror like I have. The horror that neither moves you nor breaks you, but with one iron palm muffles you. The memories are not within me. They climb up on the walls like …

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THE FIRST OF ME: 2021

Zephaniah 2:3 “Seek ye the LORD, all ye meek of the earth, which have wrought his judgment; seek righteousness, seek meekness: it may be ye shall be hid in the day of the LORD'S anger.” You died before the world went crazy. And with you, you took the best of the century. Moments so golden, …

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THE WHEEL OF FORTUNE

All these years I was afraid of addiction to something consuming me, when really I was afraid that I would lose my soul.  When I started falling from happiness I thought I would never be happy again, so I started to prepare to numb myself by building walls inside. The foundations of insecurity breed hatred of …

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REST ON YOUR WINGS OF FIRE

Stop acting like every breath you take stole you from death, My nightmares only come alive when I can’t send myself to sleep, I can’t seem to find my breath as the figments of my imagination play too heavily on my emotions, Now every movement they make, even to offer me kindness, I am a …

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HAVE YOU EVER SAID A REAL GOODBYE

I’ve always wanted to know if the birds ever felt free inside, Do they gaze above into the stars each night as my eyes do? How many places have their feet touch that the birds didn’t want to stay in? But the moment I step near them, they fly away in fear. And how many …

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READY TO PAY MY DEBT

The eyes that have seen the truth aren't pretty. And the sky starts to reveal it’s colours in the stillness of twilight. I don't know how some sleep at night knowing there are so many secrets unknown, That some have died in terror and may be right now in danger, That a million miles away, …

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WHAT I KNOW NOW, SHOULD’VE KNOWN THEN

WHAT I KNOW NOW, SHOULD’VE KNOWN THEN I’ve always seen the world in a pessimistic light. Well that’s what everyone would say if they asked me how I saw things. I seemed to believe that I was pessimistic, and thing is, I didn’t care because the way I was seeing the world was how it …

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2 WAYS TO LISTEN TO MUSIC

2 WAYS TO LISTEN TO MUSIC To listen to music, I have to be blind. I cannot look at the world, because then the beauty of the music dies. I have killed what I hear with what I see. Or I can look past it, but it won't be as good. Music exists beyond this …

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